Anonymous offering, 80's Flag, extreme predicaments of Sea Org life

by Anonymous
29 March 2005

Source: http://groups.google.com/group/alt.religion.scientology/msg/00f3895113e45d38

An anonymous person offered this to be posted. Anyone wishing me to post similar please email me: chuckbeatty77 @aol.com

Good Morning Chuck! This thread about physical abuse is really getting to me. Here are a couple things that happened to me, there are lots more but these are the worst. You can post them if you want, but anonymously please!

While I was at Flag, there was a time when there was a "cluster" of accidents, including some "accidental" deaths and this created a big flap. (They are on the "whyaretheydead" site already.) My husband and I were in a minor accident during this time. Of course this was a big ethics cycle, and I was told it was MY PTS situation with my family that caused my husband to be hurt, and that he did not want to see me and we were to be separated. I was very upset and did not believe it, and was very worried about him. Late one night 2 security guards 8Ced (forced) me into a car and took me to our berthing to get my things. While out front, 2 other guards came out of our room holding my husband by both arms. I could see he was very upset and I tried to get out of the car to go to him, but was physically restrained, and one guard held his hand over my mouth to keep me quiet because I was yelling, while the other held me down because I was kicking the door trying to get out. We did not talk about this for a long time, but it turns out they had told him that I didn't want to see him!!! This broke my heart and his for a long time, even though later we got back together.

Another time, I got really sick and couldn't keep any food or water down. After losing a lot of weight and not getting better after a couple weeks I was sent to ethics and put in isolation in a room in the FH [Fort Harrison]. Again, I was "enturbulating" my husband by being PTS. The door was locked, and only the MLO came a few times a day to bring "cal-mag" and vitamins and soup. I was pretty freaked out, and thought I was going to die there all alone in that dark, stinky moldy room, but I knew if I made a fuss I would NEVER get out, so I was very cooperative. One day, she left the door unlocked. It must have been Thursday before 2, because when I walked through the lobby and out the front door no one stopped me. I went to the hospital down the street with the intention of going to the emergency room. When I got there I sat on a bench outside, and decided that if I went to the hospital unauthorized, I would probably be declared, or at least fitness boarded for running up a big medical bill. Plus I was feeling a little better, probably just a nice walk in the sun and getting out of that room. So I walked back to the MLO's office and acted all uptone and told her I was feeling better and wanted to go home to my husband. She was pretty shocked to see me, and probably didn't want to get in trouble herself because she never wrote it up and gave me medical clearance to get out of isolation. Later, when I finally left the SO, I found out I had a very serious hereditary medical condition that would have in fact killed me eventually without proper medical treatment!

I was a "techie", so I was aware of some other peoples problems that most staff wouldn't know about, because no one is allowed to talk about their "case", not even to their spouse. It is so outrageous that you are penalized for asking for help, and are not allowed to help anyone else in the Sea Org, not even your own family when they need you. Sea Org members are supposed to be OT and make it go right. Anything bad that happens is "out-ethics" or "dramatizing your case." One good example is when Mike Rinder's baby died at Flag and he was not allowed to return from California to even go to the funeral or comfort his wife. He probably thought he was doing the "greatest good" for the planet and what the hell, it is only a meat body anyway. That is how a "good scientologist" thinks. That is how Scientology teaches you to think about others, and even yourself!

Anonymous