In Memoriam of Ilya Rakhmanov

3 November 1982 -- October 2004

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In memoriam Ilya Rakhmanov

In memoriam Ilya Rakhmanov

3 November 1982 - October 2004

Initial posting forwarding a message from Prof. Dvorkin

From: Tilman Hausherr <>
Newsgroups: alt.religion.scientology
Subject: fwd: In Memoriam of Ilia Rakhmanov
Date: Fri, 22 Oct 2004 18:49:02 +0200
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[From Prof. Dr. Alexander Dvorkin, forwarded with permission]

In Memoriam of Ilia Rakhmanov

His name says nothing to you. He was a mere boy, 21 years old. Ilia
lived in a provincial Russian town of Saransk, about 600 km east of

He was a former scientologist, who left the cult about three years ago.
Since then he had created a very good antiscientological web site
( and had supported it. He conducted a very active and
fruitful internet polemics against scientologists and other cultists.
About half a year ago he had created his second site
( – against 'Sinton' a popular Russian
psychocult created by Nikolai Kozlov, who modeled it partially after
scientology (Kozlov has gone through several scientological courses and
auditing sessions). Local Saransk 'Sinton' has started a court process
against Ilia.

He was all alone in his town. He was 'fair gamed' by the scientologists.
He never came to faith in God, and it was his tragedy.

I know almost nothing about him – we've just have exchanged several
letters. He asked me for a permission to use my materials, I gave this
permission. Several letters like that. I just knew that in Saransk there
was a colleague, who was doing a good job.

Last Friday, October 15 Ilia has announced on several Internet forums
that he wants to leave this life. I found his home phone number and
tried to call him several times. There was no answer… Only next day an
answer came. It was his father. My call came too late… Ilia was very
lonely. He hated totalitarianism, lie and hypocrisy.  And he attempted
to fight them. All alone. He had put upon himself too heavy a burden,
and it has broken him. His life was very short, and his end was
terrible. None of you knew the name of this boy. Now you know it. Think
for a moment of the tragedy of Ilia Rakmanov. He was our colleague who
was trying to help others.

Ilia is survived by his parents and five siblings. I will save both of
his sites and will keep them open under his name.

Alexander L. Dvorkin

Ilya's last posting of 15 October 2004. Below this I'll include a machine translated version.

From: "Ilya Rakhmanov" <> 
Subject: Я ухожу
Date: Fri, 15 Oct 2004 07:24:54 +0000 (UTC) 
Message-ID: <ckntvp$8vi$> 

Hi All,

Я ухожу.
Я устал от этой жизни.
Кого-то это обрадует, но вряд ли кто-нибудь всплакнет по мне.
Меня многие ненавидят, но никто не любит.
Может быть, в этом виноват я сам.
В моей смерти прошу не винить никого.
Ровно в полдень меня не станет.
Я выбрал быстрый и действеннный способ, так что не надейтесь, что меня
Дома никого нет, так что никто мне не помешает.
Наконец-то я узнаю, что ТАМ.

I used a few different machine translators to make the most of the translations

From: "Ilya Rakhmanov" <>
Subject: I leave
Date: Fri, 15 Oct 2004 07:24:54 +0000 (UTC)
Message-ID: <ckntvp$8vi$>

Hi All,

I leave.
I got tired from this life. 
It will please someone, but hardly someone will shed a tear on me. 
Many hate me, but no one loves. 
Perhaps, in it I am guilty.
In my death I please not to blame no one. 
Rovno at noon me will not become. I selected the rapid and deystvennnyy
method, so that do not hope that me "otkachayut". 
The house there is no one, so that no one will prevent me. 
At long last I learn, that THERE.

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