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Background information on "The Fifth Estate"
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Hana Gartner:
Science fiction writer Lafayette Ronald Hubbard was 38 years old. He told a group of science fiction buffs "it was ridiculous to write for a penny a word, if a man really wanted to make a million dollars, the best way would be to start his own religion." Five years later, Hubbard founded the Church of Scientology. For three decades dedicated disciples have been at work getting 'Clear.' That's Hubbard's term for eliminating illness and mental problems. And when you are totally 'Clear,' you can leave your body and float in space. There is no question that many people have been led away from drugs and other signs of unhappiness while in Scientology, but in recent years a number of Scientologists have been getting clear in another sense, clear of the organization. They're disillusioned, they see Scientology as a close and expensive organization, that looks on defectors and critics as 'suppressive persons' and enemies.
Hana Gartner (voice over):
Vy and Ken Alliston live in this north Toronto neighborhood. Their retirement is taken up with their dogs, flower garden and local Anglican church. Their only daughter Eleanor married Larry Brown, a computer programmer fourteen years ago. The Allistons were comfortable and content. But for years ago, things changed. They say it started when their daughter joined the Church of Scientology. They don't see much of Eleanor anymore, nor does her husband who says their marriage has fallen apart. They blame the Church of Scientology.
Larry Brown:
I have noticed if I try to sit down and talk with her, part of her wants to respond to me, but the other part, the part that I feel she's acquired from Scientology suddenly takes over and she can't.
Ken Alliston:
This is money down the drain, every bit she gives them it's down the drain, it's not going to do them any good, that's the way I feel, and they got her brain in a way that they just want the money.
Vy Alliston:
I gave her $1,500 and ten days later she was back to the house with a fella, which at this point we did not know what she was in with, we did not know, and they were asking me for $16,000, and I said 'Eleanor, $16,000, what in the world do you want $16,000 for?'" And her explanation was that she wanted to become 'clear,' and really at this point I still didn't know what she was in, and when I refused her the fact that there is no way I would give her $15,000, this fella immediately said 'Well if you haven't got the $15,000, would you take a mortgage out on your home?' and I said 'Definitely not!' And I said my 'Well my husband would become worried sick if I ever thought of giving her that much money and having to take a mortgage out. And when we refused, they immediately said 'Well can she have her inheritance?' My Heavens! I'm not dead yet! It was unreal. If she has found the right road, why would she want all this money? Why would she want it?
Hana Gartner:
Did you three consider that perhaps Eleanor has found something that satisfies her, something she can commit herself to, that makes her happy?
Ken Alliston:
What she says she think she has, and what she is doing, it doesn't add up.
Hana Gartner (voice over):
But it seems to add up for Eleanor Brown. She wouldn't agree to talk to us on camera, but she said the Church has given her life purpose, and she couldn't possibly give it up, not for anyone. She is so committed to Scientology, she went to Church headquarters in Los Angeles for a year of advanced study.
Hana Gartner:
This is the Toronto Church of Scientology, where over the years a lot of people have paid a lot of money to better themselves through Scientology. Passers byer drawn in by offers of a free personality test or the persistent pitch of Scientologists working the street.
The sign said this is a Church, but there is divided opinion in Canada as to whether it is or isn't. Here in Toronto no Church pays property tax, the Church of Scientology does. But it doesn't have to pay any income tax, because it's incorporated as a non-profit organization. But a donation to Scientology is not a deduction on your income tax return, because unlike most Churches it's not a registered charity. And if you want to be married by a Scientologist, you better go to Saskatchewan or British Columbia because only there are they registered clergy.
Hana Gartner (voice over):
Church officials in Toronto would not allow any members to talk to us about Scientology or tell us how it has helped them, so I approached the Church as anyone else would, in the street.
Steven [?0:06:49.00] told me there is a chapel inside, but Scientologists do not pray in a traditional way.
Hana Gartner:
If you don't really pray to God, what do you do in the chapel?
Steven Hall:
There are certain scriptures, and huh...
Hana Gartner:
What... in the Bible?
Steven Hall:
No, no. In the writings of L. Ron Hubbard.
Hana Gartner:
Oh, so the Bible is not a factor in your service?
Steven Hall:
No, Jesus-Christ does not have anything to do with Scientology. Mind you, there are a lot of Christians in Scientology, my dad is a Scientologist and he is [?0:07:17.00] Christian.
Hana Gartner:
Why is it... it's quite expensive. Why is that?
Steven Hall:
Some of it is. Because it takes so long to train a person, to really run these processes, it's just amazing stuff, right, and it takes few months. Just using the book 'Dianetics' that the first five hours of simple 'Dianetics', like $60, which is leagues above where any psychiatrist or psychologist have been able to do [go?].
Hana Gartner:
You know, when I read this book, it was some years ago I stopped as I'm doing now, and I took the test, and... I don't know, I went away because the man said that I had such incredible problems that it will cost so much money to fix, it was like a $1,000 for the first...
Steven Hall:
Number one, if you could become 'clear' out of a $1,000, I would go to the bank to borrow it right away.
Hana Gartner (voice over):
L. Ron Hubbard, the center of the universe for most Scientologists. He was a science-fiction writer whose big break came in 1950 with his best-selling book 'Dianetics,' in which he explains that negative or painful experiences, even from previous lives, are considered great stumbling blocks on the road to spiritual freedom. The ultimate goal is getting 'clear' by purging these experiences from the mind. Hubbard developed a kind of relentless confessional procedure called 'auditing' to eliminate those negative memories. During lengthy one on one auditing sessions, the Scientologists are bombarded with repetitive questions concerning their most private personal problems. Hubbard who says he had been to Heaven twice, refined the auditing process with the e-meter, a portable electrical device about the size of a large cigar box.
Steven Hall:
Yeah, it measures actual physical universe mass. Pain is actually a physical universe product. It's like two forces collapsing together and [?0:09:19.00] it forms a ridge of energy, and these ridges of energy are stored in our mind, and this meter can actually read it, so a 'clear' would just have no mass in his head, he would be totally...
Hana Gartner:
And what does the e-meter have to do with my becoming 'clear'?
Steven Hall:
It locates your moments of stress.
Hana Gartner:
It's like a lie detector.
Steven Hall:
Yeah, but it makes the lie detector looks like a Cracker Jack product, really.
Hana Gartner (voice over):
The person being audited holds on to two soup cans attached to a meter which monitors stress levels. In 1972, a U.S. court of appeal judge said 'Church claims about auditing and the e-meter are false, a fraud.' Over the years, Hubbard has streamlined the e-meter and improved on 'clear.' Now his followers, with the help of advanced Scientology courses can get totally 'clear,' enabling them to control the actions of others, control the weather, and leave their bodies at will.
Hana Gartner:
Have you left your body?
Steven Hall:
Not me, not yet.
Hana Gartner (voice over):
Scientologists like Steven Hall bring in recruits at Church centers around the world. The organization boasts a membership of 6 million in 35 countries, but critics say that figure is grossly inflated. Inflated or not, the Church has money and lots of real estate. In Los Angeles, the former Cedars of Lebanon Hospital is now the Church's international headquarters. In England, Scientology owns this stately manor and castle at Saint Hill in Sussex. They have estates and mansions around the world. The Church even has Celebrity Centers, like this one in Los Angeles, where they display photographs of some of their more famous members, among them musician Chick Corea, and actors John Travolta and Karen Black. This plush office at the Los Angeles Celebrity Center waits for the return of L. Ron Hubbard. He has become a real mystery man, he hasn't been seen in public seen March 1980. His son Ronald Dewolf thinks his father now 74 might be dead. But a letter signed by Hubbard and dated July of this year was recently sent to Church members. We had a hand-writing expert study it. She says there is no doubt, it was written by Hubbard.
The organization's chief spokesman is an 18-year veteran with Scientology, Heber Jentzsch, International President:
Heber Jentzsch:
I sign the bank accounts, I sign all the corporate agreements, I sign the corporate papers and so forth. Mr. Hubbard has his right to privacy in America, because America has a constitution, and that constitution is still validated and still recognized.
Hana Gartner:
So he is not hiding out?
Heber Jentzsch:
No, he is still writing, he's got a best-seller, and he will have ten more best-sellers coming out within the next year, starting October the 1st with his decology...
Hana Gartner:
Do you get in touch with him?
Heber Jentzsch:
No, I don't write or hear from Mr. Hubbard except that Mr. Hubbard knows where we are and he has a right to his privacy.
Hana Gartner (voice over):
Critics insist Hubbard in his hiding to avoid legal problems. Several of his former aides have sworn in court that Hubbard channelled millions in Church funds in his own pocket. The U.S. Internal Revenue Service is after Scientology for back taxes. And then there is the lawsuits. This is a partial list of more than 100 court cases, most of them launched by Scientology against its critics. But now dozens of ex-Scientologists are suing the Church, claiming they have been defrauded and harassed.
Hana Gartner:
Why do you spend so much time in court? This organization has a lot of court cases.
Heber Jentzsch:
I think if you look at [?0:13:03.00] organizations and you look at the fortune 500... sort of profile on major corporations in the United States and how much litigation they handle you will find that ours is really quite small.
Hana Gartner (voice over):
A former Church member was recently awarded $39 million by an Oregon jury. But last July, a U.S. judge declared a mistrial. The Church scored another victory recently when the Ontario Supreme Court ordered the return of some of thousands of document seized by the O.P.P., the Ontario Provincial Police. The documents were seized in this raid on Scientology's Toronto headquarter in 1983. Nineteen people were charged with theft, possession of stolen documents and breach of trust. Roy McMurtry, Ontario's attorney general at the time, ordered the raid.
Heber Jentzsch:
But what I found interesting was that you mentioned the O.P.P., a wonderful group of... I won't say fascists, because it gives fascists a bad name, but I will say this [raising tone]: They didn't work for Canada, McMurtry in response to me personally indicated that the F.B.I. and the I.R.S. were involved. Now, so American government manipulating Canadian officials, is that what you want? And they ran your government, and they ran them in on that Church...
Hana Gartner:
Yeah, no, I would like to...
Heber Jentzsch:
No, no, they ran them in on that Church.
Hana Gartner (voice over):
McMurtry, now Canada's High Commissioner to Britain, denies the F.B.I. or any other U.S. government agency orchestrated the Toronto raid. Despite the court cases and bad publicity, life goes on for the Church of Scientology, recruits keep coming in and cash follows, it's all part of L. Ron Hubbard's written policy.
Hana Gartner:
As president of the organization, then do you still hold with Mr. Hubbard's policy of 'make money, make money, then make more money'?
Heber Jentzsch:
Oh I see... Oh you know, I don't know who... Who told you that, who did you talk to?
Hana Gartner:
It's wrong?
Heber Jentzsch:
Is it wrong to make money?
Hana Gartner:
No, is this quote... is this... is this...
Heber Jentzsch:
Do you make money? Hana... Hana, do you make money? Is it wrong to make money? How do churches exist?
Hana Gartner (voice over):
Frank Watson knows how much Scientology costs. The 68-year old chiropractor from Langley, British Columbia joined the Church in the early 60s.
Frank Watson:
It has probably cost about... in excess of $300,000. That's counting time loss from the office and what I spent in Scientology, expenses and travelling and all things.
Hana Gartner (voice over):
Frank Watson joined Scientology thinking it might rescue his shaky marriage and improve his practice. He took Scientology courses in Washington D.C. and Vancouver.
Frank Watson:
I had advanced enough to go to England, to take what they call the 'Special Briefing Course.' And that required a year, and I had saved enough money to go on. My daughter went with me.
Hana Gartner (voice over):
Watson's daughter, Laurel Sullivan, is 36 now, and a partner in a California advertising agency. But she was just a teenager when her father introduced her to Scientology.
Laurel Sullivan:
I did originally question it. But you see, when you are 17-year old, you idealize your father. You don't ever think that he will lead you to something that could hurt you. You are totally open. I think that it's important to understand the subtleties of what happens in your mind, a gradual progression of leaving the group of your family, friends, society, then to an inner circle of another reality. Ex-Scientologists often refer to it as the twilight zone.
Hana Gartner (voice over):
Hubbard by the late 60s was in trouble with British authorities, and had to leave his Sussex headquarters. He bought a cattle ferry and converted it into private yacht called the Apollo. It became Scientology's floating headquarters, and the crew — an elite group — had to swear allegiance to Hubbard by signing billion-year contracts. Laurel Sullivan signed willingly.
Laurel Sullivan:
At the time it was very secret, that he was on the ship. I was one of the first 45 crew members, and there was great status in going to be with him, to be near Hubbard is considered tremendous.
Hana Gartner (voice over):
This picture of happier times aboard the Apollo shows Sullivan in Hubbard's inner circle. She rose quickly within the organization, eventually becoming Hubbard's personal public relations officer. Her job of selling him to the public was becoming more and more difficult, as the Church's legal problems mounted.
Laurel Sullivan:
I admired his genius and his brilliance. I did not agree with a lot of his practices or his moods, and I also recognized him as an eccentric and a recluse.
Hana Gartner :
What kind of moods?
Laurel Sullivan:
Well he can fly into a rage or turn around and hug you, in kind of a split second timing; or accuse people of trying to kill him, or trying to poison him, or trying to do him in, or trying to make his life difficult, or to prevent him from getting his due from Scientology financially, or some such. He was very accusative and he had enemies and he felt that governments were against him, and that psychiatrists were against him, and that the public at large were great duped mass and that the only salvation for them was him and Scientology.
Hana Gartner (voice over):
Sullivan's father, Frank Watson also made it aboard the Apollo. He learned about Church discipline and justice. Breaking Scientology rules meant being tossed overboard, a 26-foot drop. Frank Watson than 51, was thrown over five times.
Frank Watson:
You could object about going overboard, but you went overboard anyway. And the loyalty and the regard that you feel for Hubbard was so strong, well, you just went through it. But if you made more than one mistake, your feet were tied, and if you made more than two mistakes, you were blindfolded but you were still tossed overboard. Now, the tie... it wasn't tied up real tight, it was just a token tie, so that when you did hit the water it came undone. Same with the blind folder, but it sure wasn't pleasant.
There was a lot of human waste from the ship dumped into the Mediterranean. The ship was anchored at a pier, you see. And you're going into this stuff, and there was a lot of intestinal and digestive upsets as a result. So this was... eventually it was stopped.
Hana Gartner (voice over):
Frank Watson became disillusioned and left the Church. His daughter, after fifteen years in the organization, was also having second thoughts. Gerald Armstrong, another Canadian onboard the Apollo, provided Laurel Sullivan with the reason to get out. He was a fiercely loyal and dedicated Scientologist. He was not only married aboard the Apollo, but Hubbard himself gave the bride away. Armstrong's job was to gather material for Hubbard biography. He went to Laurel Sullivan when he found out the leader was not everything he said he was.
Gerald Armstrong:
He was medically twice pronounced dead and kind of raised himself, cured himself. He was crippled and blinded and cured himself with the antecedents of Dianetics. He was an atomic physicist, he was a great scientist, he was a great philosopher, he was a great researcher. And it turned out that he was never crippled and blinded. He took one semester of 'molecular phenomenon' at George Washington University in 1932 and got an 'F'. That makes an atomic physicist? It doesn't.
Hana Gartner (voice over):
Armstrong gave 12 years to Scientology. Now he felt betrayed. He left in 1981 taking stacks of files and documents with him.
Gerald Armstrong:
No one really cares if L. Ron Hubbard did these things. No one cares. But to maintain the lie in the face of irrefutable documentation, that's madness.
Hana Gartner (voice over):
The Church of Scientology wanted those documents back from Gerry Armstrong, so they took him to court. After a six-week trial here in Los Angeles, Superior Court Judge Paul Breckenridge ruled that Armstrong was justified in taking those documents because he said it was the only way Armstrong could protect himself against an organization the judge describe as 'paranoid, schizophrenic and lusting for power.'
Gerald Armstrong:
At every step throughout Scientology there are drills or training routines which one does. For example, for the intelligence bureau, I did various things. Types of drill: how to lie, how to not answer a question, how to get your statement in without answering, how to intimidate a person like yourself.
Hana Gartner:
What would you do? How would you handle this?
Gerald Armstrong:
You're finding out from Gerald Armstrong that L. Ron Hubbard is a fraud, then it would be attacked, Gerald Armstrong, it would be attacked vehemently. And if I could not shift the way that you are perceiving me, then I would go after you, I would start to point and I would get louder. It's called caving in the anchor points.
Heber Jentzsch:
One of the key guys, your Gerry Armstrong, your Canadian friend you [?0:22:50.00] mentioned to me, etc. who is my former stepson in law.
Hana Gartner:
I haven't [?0:22:52.00] mentioned him actually.
Heber Jentzsch:
You [?0:22:54.00] mentioned to me on the phone.
Hana Gartner:
Huh.
Heber Jentzsch:
My former stepson in law, who I know very well, who is nothing more than a clerk, besides being a spy for government. Now we are going to bust that guy's back, legally in court.
Hana Gartner:
Why is the Church fingering you then... Are they afraid of Gerry Armstrong?
Gerald Armstrong:
They feel that they have to undo the Breckenridge decision, Los Angeles Superior court decision of June 1984. That was devastating toward Hubbard and devastating about the organization, it showed what the organization was up to.
Heber Jentzsch:
I remember as a kid, a kid came after me with a knife. I took that and I smashed that kid and knocked him out. And I'm still alive. Ok? Because I'm not going to allow some thug to come up against me and do that kind of a thing. And whether that someone in government or whether that some individual who says that I don't have a right to live... Right? That's what's happen.
Hana Gartner (voice over):
This Scientology document has frightened some members who have left the Church. It's the 'Fair Game' policy, which said 'Enemies could be sued, harassed, destroyed.' The Church doesn't use the term 'Fair Game' anymore, but critics like Laurel Sullivan insist the policy is still in effect.
Laurel Sullivan:
They have declared me an enemy on an international written order for my 'crimes' in Scientology, or against them. Now I'm sure they were terrified, not that I left, but of what I knew about the organization.
Hana Gartner:
How do they deal with that?
Laurel Sullivan:
Well I have been sued twice for testifying in cases in two government officials.
Hana Gartner (voice over):
Both case were dismissed in California courts.
Hana Gartner:
Were you frightened? Are you frightened?
Laurel Sullivan:
Yes. I've been tailed. I've had private investigators looking for me. I've had private investigators go to my employers trying to find out my whereabouts. They've called my family. People who were Scientologist tried to get me fired from my job. There is a number of things...
Hana Gartner:
Do you know who these people are? Do you see them? Do you know...
Laurel Sullivan:
Oh yeah. Oh yeah. I know who they are. They know who they are. It's all on the record.
Hana Gartner (voice over):
Nan McLean of Sutton, Ontario, has kept her own records on the Church of Scientology. She was a member for over three years before she left in 1972.
Hana Gartner:
You're an analytical woman, you're a clever woman. You're a tough woman. Nobody dragged you kicking and screaming into Scientology.
Nan McLean:
Oh no... I just walking in and put my money down, said I want it.
Hana Gartner:
What did Scientology want from you?
Nan McLean:
My soul, my money and my energy. My life, completely.
Hana Gartner:
And what were you willing to give them?
Nan McLean:
All of it. I did a lot of things for Scientology. I broke the law for instance for Scientology.
Hana Gartner:
How did you break the law?
Nan McLean:
I was ordered to go to a bank and falsify my income, falsify my employer in order that I would be acceptable as a guarantor for two separate Scientologists' loans. I signed my name to that falsification of records. And the loan was granted to the Scientologists.
Hana Gartner (voice over):
What troubles Nan McLean more than anything is that she brought her husband, two sons and a daughter in law into the Church with her.
Nan McLean:
My daughter will tell you a very interesting thing she told me, she is the one and only that didn't come in. She said "Mother, I have always known you to be the most honest person I have ever known, and now you're telling me it's ok to lie for Scientology." That's when a began to look. God that still hurts.
Hana Gartner (voice over):
Nan McLean's son John is an elected councillor on Ontario's York county. He was an 18-year old honor student when he entered Scientology. He was equally anxious to get top marks in the Church, and it wasn't long before he was aboard the Apollo, where he and Gerald Armstrong became friends. As 3rd mate, John McLean was in charge of internal communication and discipline.
Hana Gartner:
Did you ever order anybody overboard?
John McLean:
I personally did not, no. I put people in the chain locker and confined people to cabins when they wanted to leave. I did that. I physically forced people by taking their hand to sign documents that they wouldn't attack or sue the Church of Scientology or L. Ron Hubbard, which was the documentation that had to be signed before they were allowed to leave the ship. And to put the fear of Hubbard in them. And no one could leave the boat without L. Ron Hubbard's permission in writing to leave the boat. Our passports were locked up all the time. You had to do a report as to why you wanted to leave and get it approved by your superiors all the way up the line right to Hubbard.
Nan McLean:
I was called upon to betray a fellow Scientologist, to betray his whereabouts. And I was ordered and told that it was by L. Ron Hubbard's order that I divulge this information.
Hana Gartner:
Did you?
Nan McLean:
No, that's why I left, I could not betray my integrity again. I walked out. And an 'Ethics Order', a treason, 'suppressive person', enemy order was put out on me. We had many threats as a family.
Hana Gartner (voice over):
Over the years, the Church has unsuccessfully sued Nan McLean and her family 17 times, and buried them once. It was a mock funeral in their hometown of Sutton. Scientologists carried a large coffin and handed out a press release attacking the McLeans.
Clearwater, Florida, 1975. Scientology made a big noise in this quiet retirement town. Using a different name, the Church bought a bank and a hotel for $3 million cash. Many in the community were outraged when they learned that the organisation was moving to Clearwater. There were public meetings and anti-Scientology rallies.
Old footage of Gabe Cazares speaking publicly:
L. Ron Hubbard has stated that Scientology is extremely wealthy. That it has the money to buy cities and even countries. That destructive cult has to know: let us make it perfectly clear for once and for all, that sparkling Clearwater is not for sale.
Hana Gartner (voice over):
Nan and John McLean went to Clearwater to tell their story.
Old footage of John McLean in Clearwater:
Scientology has physically harassed us. It could happen here, I'm not saying it will or it won't.
Hana Gartner (voice over):
Gerald Armstrong was then still in Scientology, and his former friend was now his enemy.
Gerald Armstrong:
In fact a couple of us kicked around the possibility of being issued a gun and go get John, because he was that... we viewed him as that type of an individual, it was totally ok to wipe out John McLean, because he represented a threat to the organization, to Hubbard.
Hana Gartner (voice over):
John and Nan McLean were not physically harmed, but they were harassed when they spoke out against Scientology at a public meeting.
Gerald Armstrong:
We seeded the audience, and we were each prepared with a specific question to ask John or ask Nan McLean something that we would know about them, to embarrass them.
[Old footage of public meeting in Clearwater]
John McLean:
When I saw Gerry and other people that I knew I was quite frightened I guess, from the standpoint of... I knew there was a possibility that the people that I knew would attempt to harm me, as I probably would have done if I was still in Scientology to somebody who was out. I feel that brainwashed that I would have done anything for the organization.
Hana Gartner:
Why do you keep on? Why do you keep on talking against Scientology?
Nan McLean:
Because I feel that the people need to be educated, I feel the people have a right to know what their families are connected to.
John McLean:
I am not a crusader for other people that want to get involved, [my] mother is, and she wants to crusade to try and show people both sides of the story, which is admirable, cause there are two sides to every story. But in this case there is only one side as far as I am concerned.
Hana Gartner:
And that side is?
John McLean:
That side is a bad side, that side has really hurt me in my life, and I just want to put it aside as a past chapter. The only reason I am doing this is so that other people can realize what it can do to a person's life, in the long term. And it's 13 years, that's a long time.
Hana Gartner (voice over):
In spite of her family's objections, Nan McLean continues to offer advice to anyone who seeks it. Over the past two years, she spent many hours with Ken and Vy Alliston.
Vy Alliston:
Nan has helped us greatly. When we were devastated, we were calling her all the time. I am so glad she put up with us, because she sort of led us the right way and we felt a lot better because we had somebody to turn to. And I'm still turning to her, and I do hope that one day that I will be able to get Eleanor to come to the house and have Nan here. But if I do this, Eleanor will know that there is somebody here for her to talk to.
Hana Gartner:
But you are working against Scientology, you are becoming her enemy...
Vy Alliston:
Well, if I can help somebody else... We have been devastated with this, we really have.
Hana Gartner:
Perhaps Eleanor won't want to talk to you, this maybe your best shot, what would you want to say to her?
Vy Alliston:
Well it's pretty hard to say what your going to say until your sitting talking to her.
Hana Gartner:
What if she doesn't want to sit and talk to you. Maybe this is your only opportunity now to tell her.
Vy Alliston:
Well... We love her... [voice breaking] Very much.