by Tory "Magoo" Christman more
11 Jan 2003
updated 11 June 2006
[reformatted for easier reading.]
Having lived within the Scientology community, as part of the
organization that calls itself, "The Church of Scientology" for
30 years, and then having woken up and left, I would now like to
present some major contradictions from my own personal
The letter "C" Highlight will indicate the contradictions for me. Some
others may find these true or not, however most people I've
spoken to who were in and left feel the same about a majority of
I welcome any in put from people who have been in and left or
even critics who have studied Scientology for some time.
- Scientology says they are working
to Free Mankind
- Scientology says they believe "Man
has the inalienable right to free speech"
- "Ethics" — Scientology
promotes to its members that Hubbard figured out these great
tools to help someone be more ethical
- Spiritual Freedom: Much has
been written about this, however in essence Scientology says if
you do "The Bridge to Total Freedom" you will ("There's a good
chance you can and will.") achieve total freedom
- Scientology promotes Sanity. If again
you do "The Bridge to Total Freedom" or of course join staff and
help others do this, you will become saner
- Scientology says, "Think
- Scientology promotes "The
Way to Happiness"
- Scientology promotes
honesty and integrity
- Scientology promotes
"Stop Looking, we have all the answers" in one of their Dianetic
- In Scientology's
Communication Course one is taught "TR 0" teaches you to
confront, face up to anything and be able to comfortable BE in
- Scientology teaches it makes
"The Able more Able"
- Scientology promotes their
system of justice as the most efficient and helpful to mankind
Contradictions: Scientology in truth actually traps a person,
getting them from day one to agree to "Keeping Scientology
Working" which in fact slowly builds in the "truth" that
Hubbard's path is "the way". Also,
any other thoughts,
practices, teachings are considered "Other Practices" and are
considered "Out Ethics".
Contradictions: The truth is,
the higher up you go in Scientology the farther from the truth
this becomes. As you move up the pyramid, you find you certainly
are not supposed to read books or articles that Scientology
doesn't want you to read. Actually this begins right away, again
with "Keeping Scientology Working" (hereafter known as KSW).
It is considered "Out Ethics" to really speak out about
anything that might be the slightest hint of criticism to the
You also are encouraged not to watch the news as "It's
Entheta". Now entheta means "enturbulated
theta" meaning it
upsets people. Yes, I agree some news stations do upset people,
as they are, for the most part, filled with too much bad news,
vs. a mixture of both good and bad. However, there are certainly
ways to find out the news that are not all bad.
When you go for years not tuned into what is happening in the
world, once again you just become surrounded that much more in
the 'Scio/Truman show". Remember Truman couldn't see the walls?
It is exactly the same within Scientology. Any free speech would
actually help someone see the walls.
Thus, this is totally discouraged, although any Scientologist
will insist this is crazy, that they are true "Freedom of Speech
Advocates". Just ask them to discuss with you some of the
classic lies and falsehoods, and see how far you get.
Contradictions: In Scientology
people are routinely practicing deception, fraud, lies, and on
staff and in
WISE, people become slaves to a system where they
have no recourse. Towards the last 10 years of being "in", my
fellow OT 7's and I would commonly speak of:
- Never lend a Scientologist money as they rarely if ever
pay it back.
- Never work for a WISE organization, as they are
basically slave drivers, only interested in their own
- Try to stay away from most of the registrars (people
fund raising, asking for donations) as they are just
us over and over.
- Buy books, study up, learn for yourself. There are other
solutions to problems you have, and they only cost $20.00 at
Barnes and Noble.
- The Executives in Scientology (who speak at the events)
sound like robots, and whoever is putting on these events
lie over and over.
Ethics? Ha! Who do you think you are fooling?
One cannot — is not allowed — to discuss
your spiritual 'case' with anyone, except those running the
Scio/Truman show. If you do, once again, it's "Out Ethics" and
they have their ways of stopping you.
I found the more I did, the higher I went 'up the
less free I became. I was more introverted, more worried and
stressed, constantly feeling guilty and secretly bad as I wasn't
this or that.
Scientology always has an answer to everything, to bring one
back to the fold, as does any good totalitarian group. With
this, highly trained auditors (Counselors) will explain. Here
are a few for me:
"Tory wasn't set up correctly"
Fact: I have over 50 folders
of auditing (The average
OT had around 20-30), I had tons of
Set ups for each level, and continuous
Security Checking for
"Tory had Misunderstood words"
Fact: So? Did I honestly leave a group I've been a part
of for 30 years because I didn't understand some words?
Also, I had TONS, and TONS, hours and hours of "Word
OT 7, as did all of the people on OT 7 at the
time, so it wasn't the words, nor was it "Golden Age
of....<Crap>" — that is some bogus re-write of 'the tech"
and if you don't believe me, go look at the new "OT's" and the empty orgs!
"She had missed withholds (secret lies)"
Fact: Again, on OT 7 (which
I was on for 7 years) I was continuously Security Checked to
supposedly Clean up any and all
withholds. I was a Flag
Trained and Internet Security Checker who believed in
telling all so you do not impede your road to Freedom. (Ha!
I can hardly believe what I thought and what I know today,
two years later).
I didn't hide things from people. In fact, I wrote up to
RTC continuously that I wasn't winning on OT 7, it didn't
work, I thought I needed to do KTC/LOC, and I was auditing
over a huge
Present Time Problem. Hubbard emphatically
states a person will not get "Case Gain" if they try to
audit over such a problem. No one, not one person, cared or
listened to me.
"Tory was/is "PTS" (a Potential Trouble Source)
Fact: Anyone with a family
member who is the slightest bit critical of Scientology is
considered "PTS". This is handled in "Ethics" and one either
handled the person, or they have to
disconnect. The truth is
if you begin to look and read and think, You are considered
OSA may also try to throw in the physical condition I
have. Just for the record, the entire technical team of the
Flag Land Base was crammed/corrected on this anti-medication
crap Scientologists run on people, Also, the Senior Tech
Terminals decided it was fine that I take the medication,
and my Dr. (Ron's Dr.) said, "It isn't a mind altering
Senior C/S of Tech at the time wrote a Snr C/S
Bulletin saying, "If a person has tried to get off of their
medication and their Doctor has decided they need to stay on
it, that is to be allowed". (I'm the first example they gave
"Tory is an SP"
Fact: Really? I was one of
their "Golden Girls" for 30 years, (in "What is Scientology"
still) and suddenly it is found that I am really an SP?
Think for yourself. I'm in "What is Scientology", for
goodness sakes! Think about it... Oh that's right, you
can't! Well, that's why I'm an
SP, and proud of it, by the
Contradictions: The truth is
Scientology by the nature of its 'tech' makes one more
delusional. This is next to impossible for people "in"
Scientology to face, but most of us out agree it is true.
Certainly people who have studied Cults agree this is a fact,
and Scientology is one of the worst in this area. You are
encouraged constantly to see your imagination the same as
reality. In session, anything you can dream up as "true"
suddenly becomes fact.
If in session you "See" yourself as Cleopatra, Jesus, Julius
Caesar, famous artists, Shakespeare, Patton and other warriors,
Leaders of all kinds, Celebrities of all kinds, and 'past life"
people of all kinds, this becomes "Fact" for you, and your
Contradictions: In Scientology
one is constantly, from day one, first thing you read (KSW)
taught to ask "What do your materials State". One is taught
never to give out what has been labeled "Verbal Tech". This is
actually a "High Crime", so one MUST refer only to "Source".
Also, within Scientology Doubt is considered a lower
condition. Thinking is actually labeled on one of Hubbard's
Charts as quite low. In Scientology the highest you can do is
"Know". "Knowingness" is promoted as a high state, "Thinkingness"
is at the bottom.
It takes years to realize this "Knowingness" is only valued
amongst your seniors if you are doing what they want. If not,
there are other scales, and 'tech' to prove you and your
knowingness to be absolutely wrong.
This is a small
book that they sell to local Doctors and businessmen, for huge
amounts of money, telling them they need to 'help their
community'. Many of these principles Scientology actually
violates greatly. Just a few examples are:
1. "Safeguard and improve your environment"
Contradictions: While at
(their highest place to go for services) bottles and cans are
pitched into the garbage daily, by the ton.
I asked their Public Relations person to try to get in
recycling. They had no time or interest in this.
Trees... many large businesses have now begun using thinner
paper, or less paper, as well as using recycled paper.
Scientology still uses tons and tons of high gloss, heavy paper
with no care for the trees they destroy daily. They also send
out tons and tons of junk mail to public who are in fact wrong
public for them.
2. "Seek to live with the truth"
Messiah for facts about Hubbard lying daily. Scientology, of
course, puts down this book like it's utter trash. Of course
they do! If you read it, I doubt you'd cough up one more dime to them. Certainly,
you'd at least want to learn more.
Type in "L. Ron Hubbard" in
Google and read all of it, and
make up your own mind. You'll never hear Scientology actually
say that. They'll say, "Read everything" however it is only
their suggestions, and in fact their orders, which will be the
only books they approve of you reading. Think about that one: I
don't care if you read their side, my side, other people's sides
and facts. The facts are there now for you to make up your own
mind. That is something Scientology has to stop at all costs. If
people knew all the facts, most would not stay "In" Scientology!
Also, it says, "Do not tell harmful lies". No where does it
say, "Do not lie".
Witness OSA here lying and justifying it, saying it is
they are "Handling
SP's". That's because, to them, it
perfectly ok to lie if it forwards their means, per Hubbard's
tech, as most of you know.
Scientologists are actually
taught to lie in "Ethics" using
"The Acceptable Truth" which is a phrase used to deceive people,
supposedly not lying. Example: My mother was worried about me being
in Scientology, and actually was trying to get me to see they
were lying to me, and she wanted me to get a "real job and move
on with your ".
In Ethics, I was told to use this. "Just tell her you are
working with your friends" in the day vs. Being on course all
day, which in fact I was. This began years and years of more
Also, people lie to themselves about their "wins", trying to
meet the group approval.
Yes, they will have a temporary win, however when it
dwindles, they leave that out even to themselves. You don't even
try to do this; it's set up as an automatic screening device.
This could be a series in it self. There are many more
examples. More will follow.
Contradictions: Again, see above
re honesty. I found myself and other Scientologist to think we
were 'the most honest people on the planet', however within
Scientology one often sees dishonesty occurring in many
different ways. Some examples are:
1. The tech is supposed to be totally standard, yet it is
altered constantly, depending on who was using it.
2. Scientology says it teaches honesty and integrity, yet
Scientologists are required to attest "Officially" to state
after state that turns out to be temporary at best.
Scientologists are in a constant state of guilt and anxiety
about the states you have attested to, yet you know you really
have not attained what it says. This is so huge, that literally
the C of S removed the "EP's" (Supposed End Phenomena") from
their printed "Bridge to Total Freedom". People I knew, myself
included, got worse and worse re this the higher up we went.
There is also a huge expectancy from the rest of your group
re these supposed states you have attested to, and what people
think you can do. Since you really cannot do them, or at best
some, (but often none)...again one is left with huge secrets,
falsehoods, and self-deception.
Contradictions: Looking is
stated as one of the highest states of awareness on Hubbard's
Scale called, "Know to Mystery".
This is actually quite tricky, as it sounds so good. It
good, if one could do what you want, after first being.
Contradictions: One in
Scientology is constantly taught to refer to
Source for what you
know and do.
Thus everything one faces/confronts is filtered through "The
Tech" of Hubbard.
You always have to "Do what Ron Says", regardless of what you
may perceive. Ron does say, "If it isn't true for you, it isn't
true" which was a huge trap in itself that kept me there. Only
after years of people enforcing things that were not true for me
did I begin to wake up.
Actually perception has nothing to do with
TR0: you are
supposed to "Do nothing but be", which is fine.
Ok, you are, but that stops at "do". You are totally distrusted
with what you might do on your own, without referring to the
authority: Ron. You can be but you cannot do. You have to
what I say.
Contradictions: The tragedy of
Scientology is it actually makes the able less able, in a slow,
methodical, tyrannical way. This philosophy is supposed to make
you a bigger being, more able, more capable. Through the
constant usage of 'the tech' you find you've become actually
less able, more introverted, seriously guilty constantly and
really a servant and a slave to Hubbard and his delusions.
If you doubt this, go talk to the former "OT's" who left
Scientology, most of Hubbard's staff who have long since left
years ago, all of the original
Class 12's who are now out, and
many executives who helped form Scientology and are now out.
If you cannot do this, I rest my case.
Contradictions: In fact,
Scientology's justice system again only works when the Convening
authority (The high ranking accuser) in Scientology agree with
the findings and recommendations. Their justice is actually the
opposite of justice. In most cases, you are just found guilty,
once the 'authorities' make up their mind. In normal justice the
Judge is a different person than the accuser. In Scientology the
Accuser is also the Judge.
I actually asked for a "Committee of Evidence" in a
company, Survival Strategies. They brought in
Dan Owen, who told
me "Anything I send up to
RTC will go through. I am thought of
as KhaKan (He supposedly has immunity to Scientology
prosecution — he can do anything he wants)."
He totally altered what is supposed to be a standard
Committee of Evidence, would not even let me speak, and found me
guilty of everything I didn't do. I wrote up exactly what
Hubbard said to be the way to do these, and how they had done
the opposite. No one cared, not at Survival Strategies, nor at
WISE, who is supposed to be the senior, convening authority.
They never even wrote me back.
Scientology also has their own secret Police ("The Office of
Special Affairs") who practice
Fair Game on anyone who leaves
and speaks out. They consider this fine, as to them these people
are "bad". However, in true justice, one should be allowed to
speak your mind without harm. At the very least you should be
able to represent your case in a true court of law. However, in
Scientology it is a "High Crime" to take someone to court. Also,
for people who have given them lots of money and then ask for it
back, they would give these people their money back, if they
truly followed "The
Tech" which says to do so.
OSA has personally tried to "Fair Game" me, within 6 months
of me leaving the "Church of Scientology. They tried to pin (and
failed) a criminal conviction on me for sitting in an empty, Red
Santa's chair in Clearwater, Florida (for 2 seconds). It turned
out they (C of S/OSA) had "Over 100 cameras" on us, in a 4 block
Justice? Go visit the
KKK. You can learn a lot from history.
These are just a few of the many Contradictions within the
walls of the organization who calls themselves "The Church of
If you have a loved one in Scientology and you wonder what to
do, I suggest you begin bringing up these very basic
contradictions, and ask them what they think.
You never know when someone just might wake up. I did, after
30 years "in".
Love to all,
~dancing in the light
~In for 30 years... now out for 5 Years, soon 6
- X-OT 7
- X-OSA volunteer after 20 years
- X-Grad 4, Flag Trained and Interned Security Checker
- X-Scientology Minister X-Executive Director of "The
Scientology Parishioners League"
- X-OSA Int Secret Mafia member until I realized what they
were actually doing
- X-Sea Org (briefly)
- X-Flag Legionnaire
- X-wife of OT 8, Harold Bezazian (Ended due to me
leaving, and OSA lying to him) am now...for thinking and
speaking my mind Declared SP (SP 6 ^ with Cumulative Cluster
) Expelled from C of S (woooo hoooo!!!) Free at last!
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