What It's Like: 6 Years Free of Scientology

by Tory Christman more
19 July 2006

Source: http://groups.google.com/group/alt.religion.scientology/msg/70bab8f75c672d50

Ok, I have to write about it, as it's so HUGE for me!

Just think: 6 years ago, tonight, Bill Yaude's wife called to tell me: "Tory, Bill wants to talk to you". Now I hadn't really talked to my auditor and old friend, since the night he and Gavino and some other supposed "OT 7 and 8's" had basically spiritually raped me in that apartment, 6 months earlier, when I had connected the dots, after going on the Internet — and realized: "Holy S**** Sherlock! These idiots are using those accounts I'm opening up to STOP FREE SPEECH"

At the moment I realized that, I knew Bill had gone "PTS" to Scientology, and there was basically no way out... except to get very honest and straight with myself.

Ok... roll forward, I tell his wife, who I KNEW had no clue about the Top Secret Mafia, except that something was being done to "Handle the critics". I said to her:

"Kathy, I'll tell you this:

I won't meet with you except in a public place.
IF Gavino (OSA Int, who ran the Top Secret OSA In Internet Mafia) shows up, I WILL Call the police. (a HUGE "Crime" for a Scientologist......so it shows how far off I was from being "in" by that point)

We agreed to go out for dinner, and she and I did. We sat and talked, and there I was, having now been in communication with Stacy, Bob Minton AND Jesse Prince, AND of course, ANDREAS: ALL SUPER GIGANTIC SP's! How weird was that! You talk about terror: Trying to watch my own back, having NO clue what these people might do to me...oh Gawd it was a night!

Finally we go back to their home, and Bill... for the first time in months... give me a huge hug as in the old days, pre the 'night'. For anyone who doesn't know what I'm talking about, there it all is.

Ok, he's super friendly, takes me into his office and says with a big smile: "WOW! YOU are in communication with Andreas! Do you realize you're the FIRST person who has been in touch with him?"

I laugh, and say: "Well, ya know he really isn't THAT hard to get in touch with". (All the while wondering, how does HE know I've been in touch with Andreas, and will Gavino and the OSA mafia show up here? It's pretty damned weird).

We sit down, and he's trying to grill me about stuff, all very nicely of course. Suddenly he wants in on what's going down, and it's way way wayyyyyyyyyy too late for that. ALL of a sudden I get in my mind: I'm going to go home, and post "Magoo Left the Building!" That was the thought I had, that I was done, done DONE with Scientology: FOREVER!!!

I get a HUGE grin on my face, and Bill looks intensely: "WHAT WAS THAT???"

I say, "Nothing". He says, as my auditor who knows every indicator I have: "No............. THAT wasn't nothing, that was something... what?"

I knew he posted on ARS EVERY Am, and every Pm. So I just said, "Let's just say this, Bill: YOU will be the first to know, tomorrow morning".

And I got up and left. The rest is history........ and quite a wild one, at that.

For 6 years, as most of you know, OSA has been running their endless black PR campaigns on me, and I can say without a doubt that without the help and support of the critics and certainly the ex-scientologists, I wouldn't have made it: PERIOD.

What words can you say to someone who had helped save your life? There really aren't words deep enough that I know of to express the gratitude I feel. What words can you say to someone who helped you view your new situation with a new and better view? What words can I say to tell each of you that your kindness, and support, and love — from not only critics, and ex-Scientologists, but Scientologists, and many people who have NOTHING to do with this, at all, but write me periodically, telling me they've followed my story, and thank me for my courage.

WOW! Amazing.

I remember when I first left, and the four people speaking to me, no 5, were Stacy, Bob, Jesse, and Mark Bunker... and of course Andreas via E-mail. After the escape and getting to Stacy's home in Florida........... Bob handed me a laptop and said: "Keep writing". That right there helped change my life, greatly.

Mike O'Connor feedback post:

Tory, I'm pretty sure I was not the only one to think this, but perhaps I'm the last holdout in thinking it — that you were a plant here.

Your sudden switch from forceful cult advocate to cult critic, then your involvement with many critics, the LMT, and so on...

I've been here since late in 1994. I've seen many, many cult shills, fakes, tricks, on and on come though here. Many credible and proven stories of the filthiest, immoral, sneakiest type of stuff, infiltration of groups, even governments. Well, I don't need to tell you this. And the many, many times the cult comes in here to ars posting as a critic and being uncovered rather quickly, well, it's downright traditional, we could all name a dozen of our favorites.

So when I see a dedicated cult op (you posted thousands of pro cult messages) person become a dedicated critic in a matter of months, it seemed ok, here we go again. It's a set up. Because the cult has done MANY set-ups. There are lots of examples, but think of the infiltration of CAN. The cult had a mole in there for AGES, a really deep cover one, and even when it all blew open a lot of people couldn't believe who the mole was. Here we go again. Remember, while posting, even after turning, you denied any involvement with the OSA, said it was all on your own.

You Tory, you were going to be the next deep cover mole. You were going to be the one to get into "the next LMT" when it arose, and blow it apart. I think a bunch of people felt this at first. I felt it for a long, long time. I still sort of hang on to it. Even after telling your story, the truth, all of it, over and over in a hundred venues. Even after the cult has gone after you from various directions. I've hung on to that feeling. Cause I remember CAN, LMT, Erlich, Klemstroud (sp sorry), Wollersheim, Lerma, Henson, Prince, Penny, DAMN! It goes on and on and on and on and ON! All had underhanded filthy ops pulled on them. You just can't put anything past this organization. I'm not a conspiracy buff, but you just can't. You can't.

But time marches on. And you are out there, talking, not just saying what you know about the cult, but your feelings are in writing, years of writing. A regular reader gets to feel they can know, after years and years, reams of writing, what is in a writer's head, even without seeing them, without meeting them. You don't know me, I don't know you, but I know your writings here — I've read every word. And this stranger knows you enough to say this on your sixth year of freedom:

You're a good person Tory. And you're for real. Thanks for doing what you've done. Thanks for putting yourself out there. You've sacrificed to help people, and you HAVE helped people. Even some people you and I will never, see or know or hear of. They will read your story, learn things, get insight and be saved. You've saved people time, money, anguish, I'm sure of that, but I also think you've saved lives. Real people's lives.

I think when most people join Scientology, work for it, for the OSA, they are wanting to help people. Clear people's minds of trouble, help them understand things, communicate, be better people. After following a long and winding road, filled with dangers and surprises, you've done it. Those things are exactly what you are doing. You're a good person, Tory. Thank you.

I'll never forget this wonderful group in Seattle. They'd write me every day and say: "We aren't x-scientologists, we've never been in Scientology, nor are we critics. We just happened to see your story, and now we all follow it every day. They'd send me blessings — oh God, how much that meant to me :)

One by one, critics began to 'get it' that I wasn't this OSA op, that no doubt OSA themselves were promoting wildly, and frankly, still are trying to as I type. I began to write more and more, and found each time I'd hit "Send" I felt that much more free. It was THE wildest thing!

After about one-two weeks in Clearwater, Bob, Stacy, and Mark and I went up to Bob's house in Boston.

After they announced they were going to picket. Since I'd even called Stacy before leaving to tell her I certainly wasn't going to picket, make videos or speak out........... I wasn't going! They said, "OK" and kept driving. I told them they could drop me off at the Mall, I'd shop while they picketed. They said, "OK".

However, I'd been at LMT for about one week prior, and had talked to SO Many parents, I couldn't believe it. ALL who had lost their kids to the cult. I finally figured I Had to TRY to do something, so I did.

I tried to go talk to the Boston Org. The rest is history, which you can see at Xenu TV (Magoo: Dancing in Boston) Mark Bunker put that up on the Internet the next day, and I found out some months later, I was declared an SP that day, without ever even having ANY "Comm Ev" at all. Mark's videos have helped many people, and certainly he should be thanked for making them, doing such an excellent job, and keeping the up on the Net.

Dave T also helped me greatly with a view of my life, I certainly wouldn't have seen.

I'll never forget meeting ALL of the critics in Clearwater! Gerry Armstrong: Oh my...now that was a first meeting I'll never forget!

Jesse Prince helped save me that very night! That's an entirely different story, and I have to say, I miss Jesse greatly!

Another kind soul who has passed on now was Vaughn Young (Robert Vaughn Young) who despite being mid-dying, called me, took much time to help me, and told me I could call him any time, which I often did. What a wonderful soul he is!

Of course because the realization was sinking in that I was going to loose many/most of my dear friends, and quite possibly my husband then, I had many late nights of sadness.

I'll never forget popping onto this IRC site one night, not one the critics use, but just one where people were up late. These people were/are ALL big on color and brightness, and as I popped in, up went my name in lights: MAGOO!!! WELCOME MAGOO!! Fireworks, cakes, sparklers, etc. As I told them later, I couldn't possibly tell them how much their kindness meant to me.

Oh jeeeeeeeesh, I could go on forever: There are SO Many people who have helped me in so many different ways. Truly, it's been one of THE most amazing experiences for me to go through.

What words can I say to the many families who have called me, asking for help re their son or daughter they've lost? I wish and pray their kids will someone break free, too.

What words can I say to the many people who have lost loved ones to the cult? Blessings to each one of you.

What is it like, 6 years later? Well, I feel terrific! I've got more courage and strength than I ever dreamed I could have. I have compassion for people......... well, I always had have compassion, and I've always been courageous, but IF someone was going to tell me I'd have to go through what I have, I never would have dreamed I could have. It feels terrific to have done so, persisted, and made it! I highly recommend people trapped "in" give it a shot. As my sign says in my home: "LEAP! And the Net will appear"

There are many, many people I'd like to thank tonight. I was going to try to name each person, but frankly, I'm sure no one cares really, and hey, I know I'd leave out someone who was VERY important. You all know who you are, and if you were here, I'd hug ya tonight!!!

Thank you, Thank you, Thank you! And bless each one of you for taking the time you have to help me in these last 6 years, even if you weren't trying to, sometimes just in answering or talking — you did!

Can you believe it's been 6 y e a r s "Out"??? WOW! :)

Don't forget South Park tonight at 10 Pm, here PST
Talk about super kewl Karma!!!
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Tory/Magoo~Dancing in the moonlight~
In Scientology for 30 years, out happily for 6 years!
For thinking and speaking my mind, Scientology declared me a 'suppressive person' and expelled me from their so called 'church'
Free at LAST!

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What It's Like: 6 Years Free of Scientology

by Tory Christman more 19 July 2006

by Tory Christman more
19 July 2006